It's All Relative

So, we're good?

Last night Seth came over after I told him I wasn't feeling well. I didn't really want him to come over, but I figured it would be a good time to try and talk to him about what's going on here.

Luckily for me, I didn't have to bring it up.

As soon as he sat down, he asked if "we" were ok. He said he'd been feeling like I was distancing myself and he had been preparing himself for a break-up for the past few days. I didn't really know what to say right away. I was so shocked (thrilled?) that he had been the one to bring it up. After thinking about about what I had been wanting to say all along, I told him I did like him and like spending time him with, but yes, I was trying to distance myself from him. I told him that I thought this whole thing had come about really fast and how I was a little freaked out about it. I also said that I wanted to continue dating him (which I do) but I just wanted to slow it down a little. I explained to him that I enjoy having alone time and that I'm not the kind of person who has to be hanging out every night, all night. He understood, but I could tell he was a little disappointed. He basically poured it all out for me, told me how he felt and didn't think it should be so complicated. I tried to explain to him that I'm not good at being a girlfriend and more specifically, I've been single for so long that I was still getting used to being someones girlfriend. I also told him that I wanted to make sure we really got to know each other before we start like, meeting parents and stuff. It was a good talk. I even told him I hate it when he calls my "baby". He thought that was funny and promised to stop.

So that's what's up now. We'll see what happens. I do want to continue dating him, but after last night, I know his feelings for me are stronger than mine for him and I just don't want to hurt him. That would suck, a lot. It will be good to get away this weekend and to spend some time apart.