It's All Relative

He better not start calling me 'baby'

So I'm dating someone.

I guess that's what's going on.

I don't even know since it's been a while since I've done this. But really, I am. I don't really want to get into it but let me just say that I'm once again forced to acknowledge all the issues I have regarding guys and that really sucks.

New guy is great. Really great. He treats me better than I've ever been treated before. Says the sweetest things to me, tells me I'm beautiful, opens doors, let's me pick the movie we watch..he even set up a little European picnic in his living room one night after I told him about my trip last year and how much I missed it. I mean, who does that??? Because he is so nice to me and because this is the first time in a long time I've dated someone longer than the shelf life of milk, I'm pretty much starting to freak out. I'm trying to recognize that this is the exact reaction I experience every time I start hanging out with someone. I've also started to pick at the things that I don't like about New Guy, which I've learned is just me being lame and trying to talk myself out of the relationship and I should just shut the hell up. Is it weird that it bugs me that I know who is playing in the NBA finals and he doesn't? It doesn't matter right?? Just because a guy isn't into sports, doesn't mean he should be tossed aside, right? I know this, but things like that just bother me. I'm really trying to appreciate the things that New Guy does like. For example, when he suggested we watch Battlestar Galactica on DVD, I said, "Definitely. I've never seen that show before," when in the back of my mind I'm thinking, "Don't you want to see Nadal's quarterfinal highlights from the French Open?" This type of thinking is exactly why I fail miserably at dating. I have this fantasy of what a guy should be, or at least, the guy I think I want should be. I don't know what's going to happen with New Guy, but for now I'm jut going to accept this whole thing as a practice run; a practice for me to let go of my hang-ups, my insecurities, and to try and be a little less neurotic this time around.