Happy Christmas

Shannon and Brad came up from Phoenix to hang out with me this Christmas since I wasn't going to be going home. It's been a little bit weird not being home, but that's life. We were planning on going snowboarding today at Sundance but a snow storm, 30 mph winds and 20 degree temps made us reconsider. So we're going to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button instead.  I'd rather go see Twilight but no one else seemed to be into that idea.

Hope everyone is enjoying their holiday.

Things I have strict opinions about

Russian accents make my skin crawl. I seriously hate them. They are my least favorite accent.

I work with a Russian woman and I'm at the point where I avoid talking to her at all costs. In fact, I avoid having to be within earshot of her because the sound of her voice is just that bad. 

I'm not anti-Russian. I'm just anti-Russian accent, ok? 

What else?

I'm also pleased that the Kings fired Reggie Theus. Although, I'm not sure a new coach will necessarily turn things around, but we'll see.

I'm getting to a point where all my pride is seriously gone out the window and I just don't care how stupid I look or sound anymore. I haven't decided if this is a good thing or if this is just a sign that I've lost all dignity.

I went and shot some serious weapons at a shooting range the other night and for someone who is pretty anti-gun, it was surprisingly therapeutic.  I have no future plans to purchase one of my own but let's just say that if I had one and someone tried to mess, I wouldn't miss, ok? Shoot to kill, is what I was told. Shoot to kill.

 

Rather personal, but this is my blog so I don't care.

I have zero desire to blog, None. Really though, I could never put into words how out of sync and off I feel.

I guess I could try, though.

Nothing is really going so well for me. Nothing. And as ungrateful as I know that makes me sound, I don't care. This is my blog. If I can't write down how beat things are going here, where can I? I don't even care.

Back to my point: I hate blogging so much right now because I have nothing to write about. I'm working, but doing something that I hate and don't want to do. It sucks. I've also been feeling a little distant from some of my friends, which is not a good feeling. My friends are my family here and it totally bums me out that things are weird with some of them.

I also can't believe I have found myself in yet another wrenching guy situation. Only to make matters worse, we are in round 2 with this particular person. We've gone here before and I'm left feeling the same things I did a couple years ago, only this time it's worse because I feel like I'm making the same mistakes all over again and it's excruciating. It's as if I'm watching a movie of my life and I'm screaming at myself to stop it already, demand what I want and don't apologize for it. Except, this isn't a movie, this is my life and I'm hating me for putting myself through this again.

In other words, things could be better.

I 'm not asking for sympathy. Really, I'm not. Like I've said before, most people have it a lot worse than me. I know that. But I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of my worst, and for me, right now, that is a desperately depressing feeling.

Why are guys all lying hypocritical a$$^)&#@?

No really, someone needs to explain this to me.

I really heart Utah State

Shout out to my old PR Professor, Troy Oldham (making his appearance at about :46), who assigned me the lead on my senior seminar project in which I marketed culinary sensation, the Turkey Cannon. 

Oh, and Trent (:30), still holding it down with the recruiting office.

I miss it.

What 31 degrees and 90% humidity looks like

Baking makes me feel like I have control in a world full of chaos

Clearly, I'm going through tough times. I'm not in the mood to document it, but I realize I'm not the only one feeling it right now. And a lot of people, most people I'm sure, have it a lot worse.

I'm really thankful for my family.

And brownie mix.

They have to

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