some news!

This feels like old news, but since I don't update this blog ever (oops!) I'm sorry.

But, we're having a baby! In November!

 

(8 weeks)

We are very excited and nervous and scared....but mostly excited (and nervous).  It's sort of still a little surreal to be even saying "I'm pregnant." Crazy.

 

But alas, I am. My doctors keeps telling me so and we have pictures and a little heartbeat recording to prove it.

I'm currently 17 weeks and feeling mostly normal.  I didn't get sick at all, which I am thankful for, and my energy has been pretty good. I haven't been working out much lately, which most people could blame on fatigue, but I can't really use that excuse.  I've just been extra lazy. Will pick it back up tomorrow, I swear!

 (These aren't good pics, admittedly. What is the social consensus on belly pics? I usually fall into the "no bare belly" category when it comes to judging others, but these are the only ones I have so far that I really only took for my own comparison. Sorry. Excuse my 6AM puffy eyes and clearly lacking photog skills.)

So, fun fact about me...I have always loved reading about other women's pregnancies, births, etc.  I have always found it fascinating and interesting and exciting.  So, whether or not anyone cares, I plan on keeping a little weekly pregnancy update right here on my blog.  It's mostly to be a little journal for myself to keep.  I definitely want to document this special time.  Because it is, super special.

Here we go:

How far along: 17 weeks and 2 days!

How big is baby: The baby is as big my palm...or a turnip….

Weight Gain: Uh, I’m not sure. At my last appointment. I had lost 4 pounds, but I’m pretty sure I’ve made them up and then some.  I’ll find out tomorrow at my appointment. I may or may not update you next week on that number, depending on how much shame I feel.

Sleep: Sleeping great, the only issue I have is to get up and pee like 2 or 3 times in the wee hours of the morning.  I’m not sure what it is, but I have to pee all the time! They say the 2nd trimester the peeing eases up since the baby is out of your super low abdomen, but still small enough not take up like every inch of your insides. Not experiencing that relief so much. Water must go right through me.

Craving: Um, I’m not sure how legit my “cravings” are.  Let's be honest, I always have loved food so a new craving here and there isn’t a big change. But lately I’ve been loving salad bar salads.  Not a little dinky side salad you order from a restaurant, but a salad made by me at a SALAD BAR.  The other night, I wanted one pretty bad and made Dan take me to….wait for it…..Chuck-a-Rama. A freaking buffet, ok? It was not my proudest moment, but the salad was amazing!  We’ve actually also hit up Sweet Tomatoes since then (another buffet! WTF!) for their salad bar too.  I don’t feel as bad about that one cause it’s a salad and soup buffet. Not so terrible, or embarrassing.
Overall actually, I’m not feeling much of an increase in appetite. I still feel sort of normal in that category. Hopefully it doesn’t change!

Feeling: I’m supposed to start feeling the baby move any day now. So far, I’m not sure I have.  I can’t tell if it’s a baby moving or just my gastrointestinal issues.  But it should start to feel stronger (the baby, not my gas...hopefully) as the weeks go by so I’m sure I’ll notice it soon. I used to be really freaked out by that thought and wasn’t excited to feel it (isn't that horrible? I’m a terrible at being pregnant). But now I am more excited because I think it will help me feel more connected to my baby. Right now, I don’t look super different or feel that different, so it’s hard to make that connection. I think once we know the gender  and I start feeling movement, it will sink in and I will dig this whole thing more.

 Random: I feel like I am finally starting to show a little baby bump, which I am happy/bummed about.  I’m happy I will finally start to look distinguishably pregnant and not just like I’ve eaten too much for lunch.  I’m a little bummed because I know I am going to get bigger and bigger and quite frankly, I am really afraid of that.  Vulnerable moment here: I probably weighed about 10-15 pounds heavier than I “normally” do right before I got pregnant. I was not feeling super happy with the way I looked or my weight and had told myself I needed to lose the extra lbs before I got pregnant and packed on even more.  Long story short, I didn’t lose the weight before I got pregnant and now I am terrified of what I am going to look like, and feel like during this pregnancy. I sound so vain, I know. I feel very fortunate and blessed that I am pregnant at all and was able to get pregnant pretty much immediately.  I know how lucky that is and I am trying to have some real perspective here.  I know it’s all worth it and I shouldn’t worry so much about it. I hope to keep working out through the next few months and trying my best to take care of my body. But I am also looking forward to getting back into shape when it’s the right time.

We have the BIG anatomy scan ultrasound in a couple weeks and I am really excited/nervous (shocker). Hopefully he or she is normal and healthy and all the right organs and parts are there and doing the right things.  If I had to guess right now what I thought the gender was, I’d go with girl.  Dan does too.