It's All Relative

The post where I get all Stephen Covey up in here....

Over Thanksgiving I got really sick...like, you guys don't even know. I hardly ever get sick, maybe once a year, but I had the worst cold EVER over Thanksgiving and I'm still recovering. Not only did this horrible cold produce endless streams of grossness and cause me to convulse with coughing, it also left me without the ability to taste anything. Although my cold is pretty much gone, my sense of taste is unfortunately still warped. In addtion, I have lost my apetite (which is NOT like me) and haven't been eating as much as I usually do. This is probably a good thing since I have been trying to lose a few pounds, but it's annoying when I need to eat and nothing sounds good. When I do eat, it doesn't taste the same. I have heard of colds doing permanent damage to taste sensations and that is scary. I hope mine comes back soon.

Lately, I have been thinking seriously about moving home for a while. I can't help but feel like I have outgrown Utah and I've been getting restless to go out and find something, someplace I love. Moving home would give me a chance to save more money, something I haven't been doing at all. It would also give me a better opportunity to look for jobs in San Francisco, since that's where I want to be. Making a decision like this is not easy and I still don't know if it's the right one, but I feel like I am at a point where I can finally do something to change my situation. Even though it's scary, I have the confidence to do it. Last night I had a conversation with a friend that was long over due, and even though it was hard, I did it and hung up with the most awesome feeling of relief, which is something I have never felt before. Never have I felt so capable, so motivated to change the things in my life that have overwhelmed me. This conversation meant more than just what was said. It tested my insecurities and shortcomings and even though it's taken me a while, I think I may have finally passed.