It's All Relative

You can't make a change unless you make a change.

I was looking at all of my pictures from Europe tonight and I was left aching to go back. Traveling this summer was the best thing I have ever done and probably the smartest decision I ever made. Not only did I get to see parts of the world that I may never get to see again, I learned so much about myself. It sounds incredibly cliche and it's so true. I learned not to take for granted the opportunities that lay before me. I left feeling this overwhelming sense of accomplishment and couldn't wait to get on with the rest of my life. The realization that I could do whatever I wanted with my life was exciting but terrifying at the same time. Settling into life after college however has had it's challenges. I have never felt so stagnant before. Here I have the world at my fingertips and I can't decide where I want to be or what I want to do. The last 6 months have been the most trying in my life. My mind is stuffed full of ideas and plans, but my inability to decide on what idea and what plan to jump on has been stiffling. It has been so hard to get excited about my future when I can't decide on what future I really want. The past couple weeks though I have definitely felt better. I haven't been happy or more importantly, satisfied with my job and I have tried to make some decisions to better my situation. I have come to except the fact that I don't need to have all the answers now. I don't need to have my life planned out for the next 5, 10 or 15 years. I guess that's the fun in it. So if I don't like something, I have resolved to change it because you can't make a change unless you make a change. That was one of the things that I took away from my training in Phoenix. I have always been a firm believer in the possibilty that anything is possible as long as you put the work into it. Unfortunately, I never thought it applied to me. Funny how that works. But I know now that I am the only person to blame for the things I am unhappy about in my life. If I have goals and aspirations in my life, the only way to make them happen is to work at it until they happen. I get that and am looking for to the challenge.

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